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The Child’s Mindfulness & Loving-Playfulness–Excerpt 16 from Out of Restraints
A Tale of Two Places With you, I can leave that other place, Those winter trees that branch in my brain. At least I’m not waiting now for some old leaves To fall-as if waiting for the other shoe to drop— I don’t feel it in my gut, or see only those blind spots...
Dual Awareness–Excerpt 15 Out of Restraints
Capacity of the Awakened Child: Dual Awareness When we develop normally (with a “good enough” childhood environment), ego states are coconscious and relatively integrated in their functioning. Forgash & Copeley When, thus, warmly invited into the garden, born into...
Inspiration Incarnated–14th excerpt from Out of Restraints
Inspiration Incarnated Raven’s Nudging We have taken our two dogs into the woods. Our Rescued mixed girl, Jewel, has the largest eyes of all. Standing rooted, severed from the trees all around Judging the rustle of every leaf, she smells something In a trance of the...
III. Inspired Individual–13th excerpt from Out of Restraints
III. Inspired Individual It’s not what you look at that matters. It’s what you see. Henry David Thoreau Neuro-gravitational energies are ancient aspects of the human psyche. We can even see Pain and Self-deception alive in our canine companions if we take the time to...
Destroyed by Madness–12th excerpt from Out of Restraints
Coupling Severed, Jolting, Alone We are not capable enough of observing nor sufficiently sincere with ourselves. We will soon recover, that is, we will quickly deceive ourselves. Z. Gurdjieff, In Search of Being: The Fourth Way to Consciousness Robots are ahead of...
Self-deception–11th excerpt from Out of Restraints
The Neuro-gravitational Force of Self-deception— I saw the best minds of my generation, destroyed by madness, starving hysterically naked, dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix.” Allen Ginsberg. Howl Like the Abnormal...
Pain–10th excerpt from Out of Restraints
The Wounded Animal in a Fallen World Helpless, Overwhelmed, Burdened Sometimes I forget completely what companionship is. Unconscious and insane, I spill Sad energy everywhere. Rumi Pain is vulnerability, and pained mammals are designed to go to one another to...
Another Force–9th excerpt from Out of Restraints
The Neuro-gravitational Force of Pain When these systems are stimulated in humans, people always experience intense emotional feelings, and presumably when the systems are normally activated by life events, they generate abundant memories and thoughts for people...
Ego Thinks–8th excerpt from Out of Restraints
What the Ego (Thinks It) Knows Grasping, Delusional, Righteous Oh the world is a beautiful place/to be born into if you don’t much mind . . . . . . ..its men of distinction/and its men of extinction and its priests/and...
Barriers as Storytellers–seventh excerpt from Out of Restraints
Stories I must create a system or be enslaved by another man’s. William Blake Under the sway of gender binary stories, women learn to hide their anger until they will take no more, while men respond, “I guess we are so different that I will never understand you,”...